The Light At The End Of The Tunnel.........

..........has completely disappeared. Well at least that is what it feels like right now. Our house move has gone completely pear shaped. Right now I do not know what we are going to do. Currently we are staying with my parents, & we are so grateful for them, not only for opening their home to us & the dog, but giving up their bedroom & sleeping on an inflatable mattress so we can be in the same room as the girls. but its not the ideal situation, esp. as Megan is currently not in school, & if I dont have a date to give the education dept. as to when she will be starting a new school soon, Im in big trouble. But I cant give them a date, until I have a blooming date.............just going round in circles right now. I miss my cat, as we couldnt bring him here, so he is in a cattery, which is costing an absolute fortune, & we are missing him like crazy......will he even remember us when he comes back?



AAAARRRRRRGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I have been trying so hard to stay positive & not give in, but I can see another bout of depression looming, & I dont know if Im strong enough to fight this one.



I actually did read something today which was very inspiring, on Scrappyfairy's blog (http://www.scrappyfairy.blogspot.com/). I love this blog, as she seems to have an amazing take on life, & the entry in question proved that. Instead of focussing on the bad points, she chose to make a list of all the things in her life that make her happy, to reflect upon when things are bad. This is a great idea, so simple, that Ive decided to do the same, so thanks sarahjane.xx


1) My family. esp. J & the girls. How on earth I ended up with these 2 amazing girls I'll never know, all I can say is that I am very blessed. I love them with all my heart & will love them & protect them till the day I die. They never cease to surprise me, how does Megan know the exact moment I need a hug, as soon as i start to feel blue, shes there with a squidgy hug. How does Keely know the exact thing to do to make me laugh? The list just goes on......................

2) Being creative, scrapping, painting, drawing.........i love feeling inspired & seeing the beauty in everything around me.

3) UKS, Scrapitude, & the million & 1 blogs I read, always someone to chat to, stories to hear, ideas to share.............Im seriously addicted to the net!!

4) Friends, mostly online ones. People that Ive never met, but that are always there when I need them.

5) Chocolate, obvious really!! Esp. when J brings some home for me without me having to ask!!

6) Pink, just love this colour, esp. if its sparkly!!

7) Pampering myself, having clean styled hair, painted nails, make up........making time for myself, having a long soak in a hot bubble bath, with candles & a good book/magazine to read.

8) Blogging, love to look back & see what has happened. love it when people take the time to read & leave a comment.




Well, Im feeling a bit better, & Mum duties call, better go cook dinner!!

xxxxxxx

Update

Well, we have descended on my parents, the 4 of us & the dog! As lovely as it is to be staying with them, its getting quite stressful! Hopefully, we'll have a moving date very soon. i miss having my own space, & all my lovely stash has been packed away!! So I cant even relax by scrapping, boo hoo!! Have been reading loads, started to re-read the Harry Potter series, began last Monday, & Im on the 5th book....can't wait for June, even though its the last book!!

Anyway, just a quick post, as Ive nothing interesting to say!!

xx

Sunday Blog Prompt

Heres the Sunday blog prompt, from SJ & Maddy:

"What changes do you plan to make in your life in the coming months. Do you like or loath change?"

Lots of changes in the coming months, firstly we are moving home in the next week, unfortunately it isnt going exactly to plan & we may find ourselves sleeping on friends & familys sofas, not the best soloution with 2 kids, a cat & a dog. But hopefully it wont be too long. We are moving to a new area, so it's going to be a fresh start for us all, very scary!! But good scary!! Hopefully it wont take me 3 years to make some friends this time!! Our new home will not be like the chaos we currently live in, I will stop holding onto stuff that has no meaning or value, I wont think "I'll keep it just in case!" It will be a clean & tidy welcoming home. IT WILL!!!! (Stop laughing Mum!!)

Im going to start taking better care of myself. Before kids, I wouldnt leave the house without makeup, hair & nails done, nice clothes etc. Now its hair scraped back, no makeup, jeans or combats...........when did I decide it was ok to stop caring about what I looked like? Its not as if Im happier this way!! So I will make more of an effort, even if its just a bit of makeup, clean hair, not wearing clothes that make me feel fat & frumpy!!

I will be driving in the next few months, so will have more opportunity to have a life!! Will start making 'Mummy & .....' time, given the girls time on their own with just me, doing something fun, definately want to get Megan scrapping, although I will be buying her some stash of her own!!

I want to get more adventurous with my scrapping, trying new things, new sizes, techniques, etc. I might even look into starting my own business, selling hand painted gifts etc..........not sure yet, but worth looking into.

So I guess its gonna be a busy few months!!

Design Team Pieces

Here is the first pieces Ive done for the Kraft Stop Design Team : http://www.kraftstop.co.uk/



This is one of the 1st cards Ive made in ages!!!



Loved the colours in this kit! Bright & summery, perfect to cheer me up on a miserable winters day!!



Wasnt sure about this kit at first as it wasnt what I would have picked, but loved having to 'push' myself!! Very happy with the final result!!

Thanks for looking!!

xx